Back in Time

For this weekly photo challenge about Time , here’s mine about how can I go back to my past.

“Time flies but not memories.” – Ika Natassa

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These four notebooks are my window to my past, with it, I can look back to who I was during my teenage and high school years. This is where everything started. This is where I started to write and learn to love writing.

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This is where I write my misadventures during my teenage years, my high school life and my friends. This is where I can look back and to where my heart first beat for someone. This is where I can laugh reading my crazy antics. This is where I can talk to my past self and say, “What did you just do?!?”, “Why did you just said that?!?”. I know for sure that she won’t listen to me

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This is also where I learn that some things don’t last forever. There will be moment in our life that we have to say goodbye. This is also where I learn to discover more of myself, what I can and can’t do, who I wanted to be and the things that I wanted to achieve.

After five years of these journals hidden away, it’s a relief that I found it and start looking back at reading who I was once upon a time. With that I wanted to write my journals again, maybe after ten years I can look it up and read again my misadventures in life.

What Love Is – Love is to Believe

1 Corinthians 13:7 “…Believeth all things…”
Mental Hospital when we hear that word several words came across our minds like, “crazy”, “scary”,  “unstable”,  “weird” and many more. We immediately relate it to the horror movies that we watch that relates to the Mental Hospital or person with mental illness. As time goes on  people became afraid of that two words and all they can see are the negatives based on those horror movies that they watched. Judging immediately that all that matters to them is to hurt others or to do the unexplainable behavior.

They may be hard to understand and all kinds of questions will come to our minds. What happened to them? What had they done to be like that? Will they ever be back to normal? Does someone still love them? Does someone still care even if they’re lost?
When to think more about it, maybe our point of view about them will change instead of being afraid or avoiding them we should really try our best to understand them.

When we look closely at what is inside that hospital are people who are lost. They are lost  inside themselves, lost within the cage of their minds torn between wanting to be free or stay in the safety of their own world. They are those who experience the most in all of us, the saddest story, the most tragic event, the most traumatic accident because of those it’s hard for them to cope up with the reality so they close everything within them. Try looking deeply at  their eyes and try to understand is their silent words of pleas for help. words that they can’t, words that they’re afraid to tell and all they can do is to shout words that even they can’t understand. Listen to their cries of help, understand their silent plea and we will realize their’s nothing to be afraid of them they’re just lost and afraid. They are the ones who needed the most care, the most understanding and the most love.

Love is to be able to believe in a person, to believe that he will come back. To believe against all possibilities that he will return no matter how long it will take. Love is more than just the romance because love is more than just that because love is to care another person. Love is to give it freely not expecting any return. Love is to be able to understand no matter how hard  it is. Love can be shown trough our action especially when we learn to care, to give, to  understand to another person even though they may not understand, they may not know or they may not give back.

To those people who are lost sometimes they just need someone who believes in them. Just like us we all needed someone who believes in us and supports us. Give it to them it may not work but at least, they have one person to believes in.

“Till Death Do Us Part”

They met during WW2, he was a soldier while she was a village girl. In one of his
mission they met accidentally, in an unlikely place, in an expected situation where
their love story began.

They got married and had children of their own. They had their differences but still
that doesn’t them from loving each other wholeheartedly. Even though he’s a soldier
but he had a gentle heart and calm spirit. She’s a strong lady with a
strong will and an outspoken mind who still believes in superstitions. Both of them
holds a spirit of understanding and a fighting spirit. They can take on any
challenges as the two of them stays together.

He shares stories to his children about his experience as a soldier. She also teach
them how to work and to do their best. They both teach their children to dream and to
conquer challenges, to be strong and to have good manners. Some days may be good,
other days may be bad but still they stick together through thick and thin.

They love their grandchildren, ready to spoil them with gifts, foods and love. Taking
caring of them when their parents are busy, telling them stories which add more
every day. It maybe simple but it’s their whole life, their whole love willing given
to each and everyone dear to them.

They stay together “till death do us part” when she died due to a heart attack he slowly starts to change. He missed her so much, his companion, friend, and partner. She understands
him and encourages him, even if it’s in a funny sort of way. Now that she’s gone he felt alone, even if there’s his family, his children, and grandchildren. Still, no one can take care her place. Her last word to her children was, “Please take care of your father.” Even in her dying bed, she still thinks about his tomorrow without her. She wants him to be taken care of, maybe not like she does but still she wants him to happy and well.

A year after her death that he was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, he constantly forgot about things. Where he was, who are they and often think about his past, their past. His mind would go back to his younger, teenage, adult self-remembering what he had before but never stayed in the present. Sometimes he would act like a 5-year-old child, other times a mischievous teenager and sometimes a traveling adult. Always changing from day to day.
Always about the past but not here in the present.

He was taken care of by his family, he wasn’t put in a nursing home as their promise to their mother. Even though he became very forgetful some things he didn’t forget, his manners, he always says thank you when food had been given to him or an act of kindness of had done to me there’s always that  word Thank you. In his remaining days, he was well loved and take care of. After 5 years he passed away and finally be able to be with her again. Tears were shed but most of it were filled with smiles and talks about their love for each other. After their long

In his remaining days, he was well loved and take care of. After 5 years he passed away and finally be able to be with her again. Tears were shed but most of it were filled with smiles and talks about their love for each other. After their long
journey together they finally have their happily ever after.

That’s my grandparents love story, it makes me smile every time I hear it. It’s real and
it’s true and It shows how love should be.

What LOVE is – Love is Patient, Love is Kind

It’s that time of year again, February that we all celebrated as love month. Where you can see decorated hearts everywhere, Chocolates are being given and sweet lovers all around. That’s what majority of people see about love, showing sweet emotions to each other’s. It’s a sad thing when we limit what is Love because in it’s truest and purest sense Love is more than just that.

In the Bible we have the perfect definition of what is love. Love is more than just words it needs action. “Love is not a noun to be defined a but a verb.”

For this love month, I will post what is love from the Bible’s definition in 1 Corinthians 13

Here’s the first one – Love is Patient, Love is kind.

We all hear stories about how grandparents are being put into a home by their families. It’s a practical solution, especially in today’s busy world. In our family, that is not the case which I am very thankful for. Since all of my aunts and uncles agreed not to send him to a nursing home or hire someone to take care of him. when my grandfather who is 90 yrs old about that time, we return back to our old house in town because of that we’re the one who took care of him.

We renovated the room where my grandfather will stay, dad constructed a new bathroom inside that room that would be convenient for him and we painted the room to give it a fresh atmosphere. My parents gave us a heads up on what we expect when grandfather would move in with us.

Grandfather had Alzheimer’s but his overall health is fine, his eyesight back then is even better than mine; he can still read without any eyeglasses. Here’s the challenge in taking care of grandpa, we need to be really really really be patience especially with his forgetfulness and his different actions. Some days he would act like a 5 years old child and most days he would act in his young teenage years pulling mischief around the house. Somedays he would be in his young adult years always on the verge of wanting to leave the house and go somewhere he used to visit in his youth.

Here’s our daily routine I woke him up for breakfast, help him get out of bed since he had trouble standing up on his own and he will ALWAYS say thank you after that. After eating his breakfast give him his medicine. He will either watch tv in the morning or go back to sleep, sometimes he watch people in front of our house often times when he does that he’s saying something about those passersby, we know because he’s always shouting when he does that. when he’s in the mood to exercise he would run around the house.

Overall we were happy that grandpa is living here with us and with that we got the chance to know more about him. Not all days were easy and fun because some days it requires a lot of patience especially in taking care of someone you love.We need to be patient when he eats, sometimes he can be messy and slow. We need to be patient in cleaning his room. We need to be patient when asking him to stop shouting at the passersby. we need to be patient when he’s teasing all of us or when he’s
making a mess around the house. Despite all of those things that he did, we still love him and respect him.

When there are days that I really need my patient, I always think back in the days when I was a baby and he’s the one who take care of me. My father was abroad and my mom was busy at our little ice cream shop, so I am left in the care of my grandparents. I know taking care of a baby is not that easy, I
also became a full-time nanny taking care of my 5-month-old nephew back then. I always remind myself when I am having a hard time taking care of my grandfather, back in the days when he’s having a hard time putting me to sleep, back in the days when I am being messy while feeding me.

To love someone is more than reciprocating them the feeling, it’s giving, doing and acting for that person’s sake. Like what grandpa did to me many years ago having the patience to take care of me it’s more than a responsibility it’s his love towards his granddaughter. The same thing goes for me it’s not only my responsibility, it’s my love towards my grandpa.

Be patient to show that you love someone. Especially to the elderly please, give them the patience, love and respect that they deserve, remember someday you will be one too.

“Laugh At It”

 

How to be optimistic?

When LIFE bugs you, irritate you or throw any challenges at you because it can’t be avoided that LIFE sometimes gets the better of us. Here’s my advice learn to laugh at it, no matter how you want to give up or just want to cry DON’T just smile and laugh. It’s true that “Laughter is the best medicine”, it takes away the stress and struggles that life throws at us. It adds more years to our life and keep those stress wrinkles at bay.

If you can’t laugh just stick your tongue at, like nobody cares. Here’s a photo example of my cat sleeping and sticking his tongue out. Thinking, ” I’ll put it back in when I wake up.”

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Starting Over Again

Linking this post In Other Words 

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I am trying to find something to base my life upon,
Something in this strange world that goes on and on
As the years go by and time fades away
What used to be good days are now filled with dismay
Tomorrow comes and then again it goes
And my ambition to become something more, grows and grows
Around the corner, yet miles away
The life I want now gets closer each day
All I’ve wanted was something to live for,
I don’t want to be this little person anymore

I’ve been basing my life upon what others think
I wish I could go back and redo everything, every time an
the eye could blink
I’ve fought to become who I am and what I want to be
I have to remind myself that one day, I will be free
When everything was a game
Now times have changed and realized nothing is fair,
And sometimes like nobody cares.

With this crazy world, I realized I needed to be strong
To start again to make a new
Life is not perfect with all these crazy roads
I am starting over again making my own road.

“No one can make you inferior without your consent.”
Eleanor Roosevelt

From Me to You

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Others might think that it’s just one of those days, wanting to be alone and feeling a little
bit blue. It might be to them that you are just sad, or you came to the point of asking
yourself what it the meaning of life? It maybe just that you really are not in the mood so they left you alone to think and to heal. The truth is you don’t want to be alone, you want to be with them so you pretend that you are fine and back to yourself. The truth is you are not, you are just hiding the real pain inside you.

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HI. Dy

I don’t know how to address this letter to you and I also don’t know how to say things
I am going to write here. You need to hear this and I need to tell you these things. Just please read this letter and you will understand what I mean.

You might think that by his moment we hate you or mad at you, no, we don’t hate you.
Just because we stop talking to you and our conversation is different from before means  that we hate you. Just because that we get silent in the middle of a conversation when you suddenly came in. like we are having a secret behind you means that we are mad at you. Just because we avoid you most of the time means that we don’t love you anymore. It just means that something is wrong and we don’t know how to tell it to you.

This is harder than I thought.Sometimes when we are sad or afraid our minds have a defense mechanism it creates another reality for us to cope up with the depressing events that is happening around us. If these events in our life are not confronted properly we start to overthink about those things and we started to get lost of what really is happening.

I know we’ve been through a series of disappointment and trials. These past few years I know it’s a struggle but despite all of that happened we are fine. You might not see it but every day there are a lot to be thankful for, there’s so much to be happy about and not to dwell on those sad situations. You told me once, “Every cloud has a silver lining.”
You’re right because even though it may be far away but still I can see that silver lining.
I also want you to see it and get out of the cloud away from the reality.

I want you to have that courage to believe again that things will be great. I want you to
have patience because success cannot be rushed. I want you to trust us on our plans and  I really assure that it will be our big break. Please just stop worrying too much, I know your scared even though you don’t want to admit it. I know your sad even though you don’t want us to see it. So, you’re hiding it all your real emotions and even hiding to other people as well. That makes us sad because we don’t know what to tell you to make it better  because you don’t see that something is wrong within you.

You’ve been there always for us, guiding us and giving us words of encouragement we got discouraged. Now it’s our chance to return the favor, we want to guide you out of the cloud of fear and discouragement. We want to encourage you and remove your fears and  anxiety. We just want to let you know that we are here you don’t need to hide away from us.

I know it wasn’t easy going through this, you often think that no one understands you but
we do. We really do understand you but it’s hard to talk to you these days with the
unnecessary burst of anger or the silent of your fear. That is why I am writing this to
you that the words we can’t say to you will be heard when you read this letter.

One last thing, just to let you know all of us your family and friends really love you and
will be here when you need someone.
Lovingly yours, Z
To someone dear to me who is at lost right now.

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Depression is not the same as sadness or those blue moods. It’s a mental illness and it can affect the person’s physical body when the person is not helped immediately. They are broken inside, lost interest in things, cannot pull himself together to get better. They need treatment to help them get better but the most important thing is to let them know that they are not alone.  From me to you I will be here by your side.